Over 2 years and still so much pain,,,

[Pax_luv]

Adios, you have my empathy and sympathy. I’m sorry you are going through this. You will make yourself bonkers trying to understand and rationalize how this is all happening. It defies all logic. ALL logic. I’m 5 years in and I still haven’t seen the ex wobble. Granted, I’m not looking. But it seems incomprehensible to just blow up someone’s life and both of your futures and walk away unscathed. To bear witness to his “solid”!relationship with her, is just awful.

I always hated hearing that this experience is/was a gift, but if you do the work (painful and tedious work)... one day, you will wake up with the genuine appreciation for this gift. Sounds insane... but it’s true.

In the meantime, keep trucking along. You seem like you are being sensible with the house and your actions.

Good plan on going very very dark. It’s for you and your peace of mind.