Thank you so much for your reply! I definitely appreciate you sharing your story. The more and more I interact with everyone on this board, the more sure I feel about my future/self-discovery.
I know I'm still really at the beginning of my journey, but I already am seeing little flickers of hope
I do have a lot of fears about the future, but I have also noticed that my anxiety has decreased greatly the past few days. I still have moments of desperate thoughts flying through my head, but instead of acting on them, I'm distracting myself, which in itself is a HUGE step!
I think one of the biggest issues is her job is less than a mile from my job, and her brother's house is also less than 1 mile from my home. We live in a very large city, so it almost seems comical how close we are still in proximity. I've passed by her co-workers (even the boss at the center of the betrayal) several times, and I've unfortunately had to give up my local Starbucks because it's also frequented by her co-workers.
I'm learning every day about what triggers me, and how to avoid them. But honestly, I think this board has been the greatest help so far! I'm still looking for an individual counselor (The one I tried was ehh...) lol!!! But one step at a time!
