Last night XW texted me. She apologized and said I was right about her all along. She said that she divorced me out of a identity crisis and she now sees it. She said that she understands that people divorce if there is no more love but to walkaway from the person you love the most is killing her. She said that she has been thinking about things since her dad had a heartattack. And she was thinking if something happened to me and she couldn't take it. And if she was dying the only person she would want there would be me. She also told me that she has been having suicidal thoughts. And that she has been letting people do things to her that she didn't deserve.

I'm not quite sure what to make of this. She hasn't admitted anything to be at all her "fault". I really don't know how to play this. I'm not sure I know what I want.

Me:39 W:36
S:12 D:9
T:14 M:11
Separation:sep. 1 2017
D filed oct. 2017
D finalized july 2018
OM confirmed feb 2018
D finalized July 2018

The fact is this. You have to be in pain before you can learn.