Yes, various ICs have recommended meditation to me over the years. Though I’m also a very logical, analytical person, I’m also open to almost anything that will help me be a better version of myself, for me and for my daughter. I’m committing to trying an app, because I need guided sessions. I can NOT focus or quiet my own mind effectively at this point.
It’s really interesting to read what you say about your experience with emotional spiraling with NGS. A lot of what you list here, I’ve watched my H experience on and off over the years. Of course, in his mind, all the depression and anxiety and misery and hiding it from his friends—well that’s all my fault. Of course. You should be proud of yourself for being capable of introspection to recognize what you were dealing with. And you are right; there is no reason for me to focus on this in regards to my H at all. It will get me nowhere. Thank you for all of this!
