Thanks everyone for your replies. I have been in this a few years, have read so much, been following your situations. I don't really post much, I have bad anxiety and paranoia when it comes to posting a lot of detail about my life on the internet. I feel confident in my decision to not stand, it was and still is the best decision for me. And although I am not standing, I continue to work on me. Just because I am not standing, does not mean I am not subject to my exes crisis. He is still deep deep in crisis, and I learn a lot from this board on how to Respond to him or handle certain situations. I think I’m doing well most the time, I must be because for the most part we get along well. Although I still struggle, ex husband can be quite chatty and like his old self sometimes, especially if OW is not around, I know he misses our connection, but at this point I am not interested in a friendship. I do like being friendly for the sake of the kids though. My new beau is amazed how I handle myself when ex is being nutso. I guess sometimes I just feel guilty not being his lighthouse, but I maybe I still can be through kindness? I don’t know. Maybe I am doing some things right, as he seems to be having more better days lately. It’s so weird after all this time, I still know him so well, I feel so sad for him. Ok I’ll stop babbling now ;-)
