Unfortunately, there is no way to know what he will do so It may be a wise plan to take at least 6 months to a year and work on you Heal , let him go to figure his life out you get some support and therapy and do the grief work which you have been already doing journel and find ways to soothe your pain..it is hard for a few months then the pain lessens, more and more as we let go
so even if you leave things as they are, you let him come and go and your full intent is to heal you during this grieving time, you can go out, make friends, join groups ect learn to play a sport or dance or hike ect and be willing to TRUST the process
trusting is the key- your life will not let you down you are guided and will be lead if you trust find faith, god, or whatever may help you in this
remember you are not alone we have all been there and will support you in your letting go-
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