I can be cordial, friendly, polite, etc. but there is a vast difference between that and being in a romantic R with her again. Most of all I just suck it up for my girls and if I am holding on to past anger, etc. it means that I have really not moved on yet. Since my girls are young we will be in contact for a very long time so it’s just easier to suck it up and take the high road. It’s funny because I never reach out to her like she reaches out to me. I still very much continue to DB her with rarely initiating contact, keeping interactions brief, never asking personal questions, etc.
I can tell though that she is very much still the same person and in some respects probably worse. I can tell she does respect me just in the way she asks me questions so at least I am not dealing with someone that is completely off the reservation. The other day she asked me if it was ok if she came into my house vs just walking in.
I sometimes wonder what she thinks but not too often. Like I am not good enough for her but I am good enough for a freaking dr. I know there is more to it than that but I can’t help to think “who is the freaking idiot around here”. Anyway, enough about her, I am just happy we are cordial and respectful to each other for our girls and it just makes things so much easier.
