R2C. I don’t THINK I have rose colored glasses on. Key word think. I’m able to see things much more objectively now. But I have a habit of trying to read too much into stuff. I have made great strides in this area though
I have actually been focused so much on me that I almost forgot it was tomorrow lol.
So here is what I know
1 I’m actually a bit nervous for tomorrow cause I feel like it could tip the scales one way or another. Who knows though right? Lol
2 we are actually getting along better in day to day like than we have in years. I’m acting like a man around the house and she treats me like one and usually respects my decisions when she asks my opinion which is quite often. When I make a decision without consulting her first she usually doesn’t challenge me and when she does, it’s a polite “what do you think about this method” type of question. On the flip side I always keep her feelings and well being in consideration when decision making. (This is a MAJOR 180 for me). We laugh and talk and interact like we should have all this time
3 there is an absolute no intimacy wall between us. She has shown signed if improvement here (little things like sitting beside me). But I don’t read into them at all because I have learned. (Go me!). I just enjoy them when they roll around. Aside from that though. There is no intimacy or touching. Zip nada nill You get the point lol
She has opened up a bit emotionally though. Whatever that’s worth.
But I look at this all very objectively. Like I’m watching two other people from a distance
So that is where we out on our anniversary eve.
I wanna get this right tomorrow. No screw ups. No pursuit. No pressure. Just cool attractive awesome Oz. Or rather Ozsome
