This bothers me too. It is probably part of the reason why you have the emotional swings. At some point you'll get tired of being her finance educator, political passion project advisor, and this guy she is so attracted to but can't see outside of MC.
I was talking to my friend about it, and he pointed out that a lot of the things I'm doing, I'm doing it out of a place of fear. I'm afraid that if I don't see her regularly - even if she is the one initiating - I will be out of sight, out of mind. I'm afraid that if we don't reconcile, I won't find another relationship that means as much to me.
I'm trying to my best to meditate and keep thinking rationally, but it's hard when the flood waters are raging. I'm glad that I can post here and at least talk through things, and for my friends who have been wonderful in listening. Tonight I'm going to go for a long walk and re-read some of the highlighted sections of NMMNG that I earmarked.
