When I start thinking about the past or the future I get upset and feel down. When I focus on the here and now, I tend to do better.
Thanks for the thoughtful reply. This part is so true. I have read that flying makes people more emotional in general, but I remember what really triggered this was the fact that right after BD, I had to travel to the same place I'm going, and it really brought me back to that awful moment.
I also was thinking on the flight in that the life I'm living - lots of travel, lots of work, professional success - I don't know if it's really what I want anymore. I'm not driven by it the same way I used to be. I'm sure it's a byproduct of the S, but the it's sad that I don't have anyone staying up worrying that I got in safe, or someone I can tell how much I love them right before we take off. I never expressed to my WAW how important that was to me and how much it made me feel loved.
Thanks for the reply. Yeah, I try to remember that I've been through breakups before, and in each one I felt as if I'd never find someone again, that I wouldn't get back anything close to what I had. And then I did. Of course, I was never married before, nor have I met someone who I loved as much as WAW, but I digress..
But I do recognize that time heals all wounds, and that my feelings are cyclical. I need to be mindful of the triggers: seeing a restaurant we used to go to, remembering things we did together, that sort of thing.
