Even if it doesn't work out with a spouse who left and then tries to return, it must still be nice to be wanted!
My health is getting just a little better but it's been a long journey after being down to 94 lbs again. I haven't heard of anyone else here talk about their health deteriorating after their spouse left so maybe I would have gotten sick anyway. The timing of it makes it seem like it's caused by stress but there could be other factors. I just wish I could be strong enough to manage life as a single full-time mom with a young child. Without a husband or family to help out it's just so hard to be sick.
If I happened to fall in love with someone unexpectedly I might feel different about dating and everything that's happening. I don't really have the time or energy to invest in someone else even if I wanted to date though. It also seems unfair when I'm still separated, sick, have my daughter 100%, and a demanding job to expect anyone to accommodate all of my restrictions. I don't see evidence of anyone who would be a good match. When I saw what was on the dating sites it's just so disappointing. Maybe I expect too much but when I checked it seemed like every guy is either wearing a baseball cap and sunglasses, is wearing a muscle shirt at the gym, not smiling, posing with their dog, etc.. and I don't find any of those things even remotely attractive! It felt so disheartening opening a dating site and seeing all the guys who are cheating on their wives or in "open" marriages. The European guy I met is the only one I could see myself with but I'm not putting too many hopes into him.
Jim thanks for commenting and I hope someday to have a more positive, uplifting message!
