Jb, not sure about ADHD, but you certainly have a case of negativism. "I really don't know how". "I don't really want." "I just can't seem to do it." "idk if she can forgive me."

These kinds of statements are self-defeating. Further, imagine being married to a negative person? Your W lives that every day!

Change your narrative. Become positive. Say things like "I really need to learn how....." "I need to share these details so you can help me..." "I need to figure out how to make this second nature...." "I need to work hard to earn her forgiveness....."

See the difference?? When you say things like you say them you close the door to self-improvement and being better moving forward.

Now what did you do that is just as bad as cheating? This is a no judgement, anonymous zone.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018