Steve thank you for that. I am working hard to be DB. Sometimes I just get caught up in the moment. Like with the money issue. I have to be better at walking away sooner.

LH I love the 2x4s. It really helps. I wish I had a microphone and an earpiece so you could tell me what to say. Every time I read what I should have said I always say to myself why didn’t I think of that. I validate but you and some of the others on here say it so much better. LH you ask what are the changes. I’m just going to list them: I go to IC, I barely yell anymore, I really listen to what she says, I keep better track of the kids activities that a lot of times now she asks me what they have and which day, I don’t complain about the house, I don’t complain about money, upbeat and happy all the time. She has made comments about a few of these things that she has noticed. One thing you said LH I really don’t understand. You said I suffer because I choose to suffer. I am not choosing it at all. I try very hard everyday to find positive things and to stay focused on that. But my mind goes back to the memories of the past. I keep telling myself to leave them there but they come back. I tell myself I have women hitting on me and there are plenty of fish in the sea but then my mind will say I don’t want those “fish”

A lot of my post just got cut off. I have more to say but gottta run and I will address the other comments.


M:42 XW:41
T:19 M: 15
D:13 S:10
BD: 8/10/18
Moved out: 8/18
Moved in: 9/18/18
Moved out: 4/22/19
D papers signed 11/4/19
D final 3/18/20