Trying to do the right thing...

[OC_Hope]

Well.... things didn't happen the way I thought they might.

XW arrived, spent one day with our youngest son, and left the next day. We had a good visit, it was light, and we laughed a lot. I thought things were going really well, but then I didn't hug her goodbye and I could tell she wasn't okay with that.

She hasn't contacted me since until today she sent me a song and wrote me a text asking if I would consider letting her have him in California. I told her she can call and discuss, but the answer is going to be a big nope.

As for the song, it was called 'Hero' by Maren Morris

On paper we go together
I know that we look the part
But almost never hangs on forever
I know I'm breaking your heart

So go on, say what you want to
I'm not gonna stop you
You can blame it all on me

I'm not the hero in the story
I'm not the girl that gets the glory
'Cause you're looking for true love
And I'm not the one
But I wish, but I wish I was

Hmm, I wish, oh I wish I was
Hmm
Wish I could feel about you
The way you feel about me
But you can't make a heart say something
That it don't believe

So go on, hate me if you have to
I hate myself too
'Cause as much as I want to be

I'm not the hero in the story
I'm not the girl that gets the glory
'Cause you're looking for true love
And I'm not the one
But I wish, but I wish I was

Hmm, I wish, oh I wish I was
Go on, hate me if you have to
I still care about you
Hmm as much as I want to be

I'm not the hero in the story
I'm not the girl that gets the glory
'Cause you're looking for true love
And I'm not the one
But I wish, but I wish I was


I suppose the message she's trying to communicate is that she's made her decision to stay with OM. I dunno how much clearer that message could be. That's had me spinning a bit today. I know it doesn't mean much and I should keep standing, but that doesn't take the sting out of the message.

Could use some good JuJu sent my way.