Funny story....Dude. She literally brought me a shot of ice cream when she returned....You ever see those little tiny minicups? The kind that they feed to like a two year old? She knows I usually get the Oreo blizzard. Just X you got me a mini blizzard which was chocolate chip cookie dough and vanilla. I just gave her the look like..."Are you kidding me?" Then we both laughed and she went on and on and on about how much she paid for this little shot of ice cream. Maybe she was tight on money? I was polite and grateful and thank her for it it anyway. I kind of did a Rodney Dangerfield Easy Money.... You know the scene where he's on a diet and it's his first day as wife brings him like all mini versions of like sausages and eggs, and he goes to his daughter and says "Melinda I can't finish all my eggs... You want some of my eggs?" So I did that shtick with my son jokingly..."S1 I can't finish all my ice cream?..... You want some of my ice cream?" And I just shared my shot of ice cream with him. She went on and on again about how much it wasn't worth it cost for that little shot that she might as well just gotten a small. But she made sure to get herself a 30 ounce tall blizzard.
Also recently she went out to a meeting for another dietary program call trim life. This'll probably be her hundred program that she subscribes to but never has the discipline to follow through with to make Lifestyle Changes. I'm curious to see if this one takes for her, especially when she still ordering takeout food constantly pizza and ice cream. Nail appointments have increased from biweekly to weekly, she puts on perfume and makeup now just to go grocery shopping, is wearing hot bright lipstick, just for other random errands, and again phone usage sting and Facebook Messenger has significantly increased. New clothes purchases, underwear bathing suits and other stuff, is putting up more and more inspirational quotes on Facebook on self-worth, etc.. She never did these things when we were even dating. She is wearing perfume that I would have preferred her to wear all throughout our marriage that she would have considered and called stripper perfumes, that smell sweet and appealing. I still don't see any signs of an active EA/PA. Not that it's any of my business anymore. But I remember a while ago my wife always said women never doll themselves up just for themselves, they do it to get other men, or compete with other women. She always used to blame women's insecurities and confidence about themselves on the sex appeal to attract other guys, that women go through all of this trouble just to get them. I've always intuitively known this since my early twenties. These are all just funny observations to me. People typically do reinvent themselves and try to appear more confident externally especially after a breakup. In her case it is weight loss surgery she's never followed through with, new clothes makeup and perfumes new purses new mani-pedis a whole bunch of new makeup products new deodorant another self care products too. Whether she is doing this to feel more confident on herself, or doing it to attract other men who knows but it is funny to watch. It's comical watching some of the 180s and lifestyle changes that you wish would have happened while you were together, and you start question why and who they're doing it for? This is why you believe none of what they say only half of what they do. And pay attention to their actions and not their words.
A couple of days ago after a serious conversation about divorce when it came to the 1% unsureity of it, she said something along the lines of "If only you could read my mind what I am thinking." When I brought up my band practice after that. She projected onto me that once my buddy and I get it going on the road and start doing gigs, that I'm probably going to be hitting up a lot of groupies. Because she knows I'm such a good singer and I do have sex appeal in that area. She also went on to ask that if I get involved with anyone, to let her know. More projection? Possibly. Its all pretty comical how people make outward changes right before your eyes during a breakup over months, or when tgere is possibly another person involved, and some things they don't change, and some things they do. Makes you wonder if a leopard can change its spots? And if the emporer, or emporess really has no clothes? Just food for thought.
