Today I found out that the OW is working at the place W works at in the next state over. She must have moved so they could be together. They work in the same general field.
I was devastated. Losing W while trying to think "maybe this is what she needs - maybe she needs to grow without me" is hard enough. But throwing in the OW is a knife to the heart.
I know this isn't about me. But my god, it is tough to know this.
And then there's the maniacally hysterical laughing woman in my head who is screaming, "Really? REALLY??? Why are you upset Yail? You lost your W a long time ago when she decided it was the M making her unhappy. This is just a blip in the insanity that is running around W's head right now."
I'm oscillating between rage, hurt, and snippets of understanding. When I think back to some of the insane things W said during our demise, I know that she is not calm in herself. Maybe OW becomes a permanent R, maybe not. Maybe this is a "sign" of her depression, maybe it is legit. I don't know. But I can't stop and try to unearth motivations I will never know.
Forward. Just over two months and I will be in my apartment. Next January I'm wanting to start my Masters Degree. I have only good things in my future.
Next focus: Seriously how do adults make new friends?!? I'm still trying to build my tribe of good, fun loving, authentic people!
