Gordie, it is always such a lift when you visit the boards and tell us how you are. I am so glad that how you are right now is deep into restoration. How beautiful that your patience was rewarded in this way -- and how wonderful that the reward can come to your kids and your W too.

Joel

Originally Posted by Gordie
When I stopped blaming myself for everything and seeing myself as the victim is when I was able to start healing and finding the power from above and within to move forward.


I am wondering about what you say here. What I am struggling with lately is the realization that my own wound has been and still is driving me-- that I feel that I was somehow bad, that I deserve this, that I have to frantically try to show everyone -- H, his mother, the friend who is paying for his D, etc. -- that I am the good one, that I didn't do anything wrong. I realize that this is a slavery and a wound that I have to heal with God's help. But to some degree, seeing myself as the victim is the first step in understanding that I am not to blame. So what do you mean by that? I know I shouldn't feel like a victim and that I should become a warrior in this spiritual battle but aren't we actually victims of something beyond our control, and don't we have to build from that point up?

Maybe this question belongs on my thread, answer either place.

Send you and your family several boatloads (container ship-size) of love.

I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord with courage.
Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.