unchien, i find music helps.
Even the angry songs too. Today I am playing Sabotage by Beastie boys. (This is what betrayal sounds like)

"I cant stand it I know you planned it, Imma set it straight this Watergate...
Scheming on a thing, that's a mirage
I'm trying to tell you now, it's sabotage"


On the pure feeling of betrayal that has been going on for a long time before we woke up to the betrayal.

But the pure raw force that we will prevail and set it straight, this watergate.

LH19 will check out Accray posts,
I like AnotherStander (i think it was you) analogy of the football team gangbanging her in the field.
That one always pops up in my head as a measure of if I am there yet.


B.D in December 2018
Physical Affairs discovered in April 2019
Divorced May 2019
H (me) 49
W (her) 29