You remind me so much of myself. I miss being a family. I too have always loved our vacations and dinners. I too loved our family hugs. I never even imagined that our family would break up. I pray every day that she does a 180 and recommits to our family.
Like you, my wife seems to want her freedom more than anything else in life. While she is not out partying, she really only seems interested in doing what SHE wants to do. Luckily for my kids, this often involves them, but at the same time her selfishness is striking. She is fixated on her looks, clothing, fitness. She listens to pop music like it is Beethoven.
I beat myself up every day on what I should have done differently during our marriage, but I am starting to believe that there is nothing that I could have done. She is unhappy and depressed. She has been this way for a long time. I didn't cause this, and in fact I have done so much to bring happiness to her life. She is writing a different story now, but she is lying. Hang in there buddy. I keep crying every day, but I am getting stronger.
