Slept terrible last night. Dreamt of her all night. Dreamt she found these forums and was beyond pissed. Had a “meh” day yesterday. Things felt off. No time for GAL yesterday. Had to pay some bills and grocery shop. It’s hard to GAL during the week cause I get off work in time to shower and figure out supper and get S to bed then time for bed. Maybe a little time but not much. I’m gonna have to plan better
I’m in pretty rough shape this morning mostly cause all the dreams. It hit me that she is being nice and complimenting me and being respectful and all these good things and they have been consistent. Which is really good and is what MWD says to look for and hopefully the trend continues
It could also mean nothing and she is done and just being friendly and nice until she’s got her ducks in a row. It struck me that night of bd I told her that I wanted to work on it but if it was really over than it was over but I would always have her back. I would always be there for her if she needed me. Maybe that was a bad thing to say I don’t know. It was before I found these forums
During dinner last night I couldn’t think about what to say at all and she is asking me “what you thinkin about” like 6 or 8 times an evening now. All the vague responses are starting to annoy her. She actually wants to know what’s in my mind and she can tell there’s more than what I’m letting on. I don’t kniw what to do here. Things just got a touch tense yesterday (not in a good way) cause I didn’t know what to say. She finally said “well I guess we can just sit here in silence while we eat then if you don’t want to talk”.
You can tell we took a small step backwards yesterday. Hopefully today will be better.
Man I miss her. That’s the main emotion now. I just plain miss her.
I’m not very imaginative. It’s hard to be an exiting guy. I don’t really know how to pique her interest and make her attracted to me at this point. My initial 180s sure helped a lot. But this stage seems harder
