R,

As you and others have told me, forgiveness is a process too.

For some there is a moment and a decision.

For most like me it takes time.

You think you are there and then something triggers you reminding you are not.

But I am only saying what you know and have told me and others.

Agree with your self assessment that w is making baby steps.

Sometimes that raises expectations which can lead to disappointment.

But you know that too.

Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving