One more thing before I stop procrastinating. At first I was doing the work to get him back. Problem with this is that it's EXHAUSTING!!! Trying to make someone else happy means it won't stick. It's too hard and there is no reward, no payback, no atta boys, nothing. Over time I began doing the work for me which is a whole lot easier since the only person I have to make happy is me. I don't need any payback or reward. Feeling proud of what I've done is the reward regardless of whether he gives me another chance or not. During this I've become a better mom. A few weeks ago my teenage daughter said "I got my mom back". I don't need it no but this is feedback that I'm on the right track.
