I think I've been way too soft leading up to this but my thought was that the patience I was showing was also strength. Keep the waters calm and give her time to figure out her feelings.
She has said she's been depressed at some level since high school. At one point this past couple months she mentioned maybe she was bi-polar because she was saying things that she wasn't feeling or hadn't been feeling. She's waiting on an appointment with a psychiatrist (apparently may take 4-6 months). I'm pretty sure she had some post-partum depression and then in December she found out her dad had brain cancer and 3 months to live. My point being she's had a lot going on so I was patient thinking that we/she would be able to sort through these things.
I need to show more strength and have her realize that she WILL lose me. Or maybe I've already lost her anyways. Not sure why I keep holding on.
H 37 W 31 S 2
T: 7 M: 4
BD 12/18 Separated 2/19 Living back together 04/06/2019 W Moved out again 07/15/2019
