I never know when I'm doing the right thing around here and everything's always on a time schedule. (Which I totally understand and I'm grateful for your help.) But by the time someone gets words of wisdom back to me here on what to do I've already have had to make a decision and sometimes I don't know if I'm making the right one out of pride or honor or vindicism or what? I'm not confident in my abilities to make decisions through all this because of my emotions and my logic and my reactivity getting in the way of another. Basically when she moves forward I move forward and when she steps back I step back. It's not difficult to understand what everyone here has been telling me and telling other people with their situation over the last several months. It's and when to apply it. Balance, timing, good judgement, etc.
I don't know what's the right thing to do. Then there's the decision of am I doing right by? Myself? Or my son. Am I protecting myself from getting emotional at a joint family occaision? Or am being perceived as being spiteful and flip floppy with my feelings, based on which direction we are headed in at any given day. It's a constant internal struggle.
IHC - you do realize that you've basically described what life is...
I feel for ya buddy. I'm in the same boat.
I think we are all kinda just making this all up as we go along.
That's the thing about life. What do you want out of it? How do you want to live? And do the people in your life want the same thing as you? Are they ok being on the journey with you, a journey where no one knows any of the "right" answers?
Sometimes you gotta roll with the punches and let the dice fall where they may. It may not be what you originally wanted but sometimes in life we don't get what we want and that's ok too.
