The best I can say is that S+MC is another form of limbo, you don't know what's going to happen, treat it as such. Don't look to your W for signals. Seeking reassurance is a sign that you should work on detachment.
Yeah, you're definitely right about that. Trying hard not to beat myself up too much about it -- it's only been a month, these feelings come in waves and are normal. It feels like a vicious cycle: I get down, I lose some of the confidence that I built, I beat myself up over losing that confidence and missing WAW, and it loops around. Just have to tell myself: tomorrow might not be better, but a week might, a month definitely will, and so on.
It is what it is, I guess. There's no guarantees of anything, other than that life goes on. I have to thread the needle between maintaining hope/not giving up and detaching/becoming emotionally healthy. I'm sure there's a way to do both.
If there is a chance at reconciliation, it's out of my control and not on my timeline. I can't influence it, except in a profoundly negative way.
