Now what?

[peacetoday]

yes I used to get the 3 am thoughts and sometimes still do

I keep my I pad close by and put on some
I AM affirmations to quiet them and send me in a positive direction-back to sleep-

you are doing well and this is a challenging time for sure
continue to take care of you-
make sure you are eating..if you you dont want to
get fresh air/exercise
sleep, rest breathe, yoga if you can
meditation
read, share with trusted support people
take good care of your body

anything is possible but the hard part is the waiting and you will not know until time passes what direction he goes
so your best bet is to heal and grieve
the old Relationship is over
practice whatever new skills help you and some may also help the relationship to promote a healthy friendship

sorry to hear his CO workers seem to think his infactuation is a fun thing
many people deny the reality of MLC and some say it is contagious--