Hey guys. I’ve been reading/replying to others a lot this week. But I guess I’ll do a little update. Been NC for a bit over a week now. The last time I saw W was when picking up S from her daycare where she works. Gave her a slight “what’s up” head nod and left. Besides that she texted me a long logistics text to which I replied “yes”. That’s it.
In other news, everything’s going really well. Getting my motorcycle on Thursday, super excited about that. Learning piano slowly hahah. Had a fun week with my son when I had him. Took him to a few parks. Playing a shyt load of hockey and scoring a lot of goals. Still meeting a lot of new people and making new friends. I think I can check the get better at small talk/socializing goal off the list because I am now comfortable talking to strangers about everything under the sun.
Hung out with some mutual friends of W and myself (she wasn’t there). Got a lot of comments from mutual girl friend who is closer to W than me about how good I look and that the extra 10 pounds of muscle I’ve gained since BD suits me well. She also tried prying into my personal life and if I was dating. Things like that. I shut that down pretty quick as it isn’t her business and I don’t really trust her. I was already a confident guy but with the changes I’ve made and the goals I have achieved since BD, my confidence is at an all time high.
Not sure if this is a good thing but I guess it means my detachment is going well. Been talking to and hanging out with a really beautiful, nice girl. I don’t want to say I have feelings for her. But it crosses my mind that I want to be more than friends with her. Not gonna rush into it, just gonna try to enjoy life and see what happens.
Although I feel sadness that my S won’t know what it’s like to have parents who are together, with all the good things I have going for me, it’s getting easier and easier for me to think that I don’t really need W in my life anymore. We will see what happens but either way, I am going to thrive.
