Persistent Endurance (Part 5)

[curtis7]

Journaling.

GAL was fun over the weekend. W had the kids. I played volleyball on Friday night, then went out with a friend after for food and drinks. On Saturday, I worked out, then met up with some co-workers and we went to a sketch comedy show. Very funny, I enjoyed having some good laughs. On Sunday, I worked out again, then did some projects around the house until the kids came back over with W from her place.

I placed the kid’s summer camp shirts in her car for the field trip this week. There was a book on the seat. I won’t give the title as it’s against forum rules but it’s about stop trying to be "positive" all the time to become better, happier people. It’s a counterintuitive self-help book about learning what to care about and what not to care about.

W fed the horses while I was cleaning the pool filter, then came up to me to tell me that S8 was grounded. She started to talking about him not respecting boundaries. I thought to myself, yes, and there are consequences for violating boundaries, but I didn’t bring that up.

She went on to talk about how her horse was gaining a lot of weight and that morphed into her saying she was putting on some weight as well. My W is very slim and athletic and has always had a fast metabolism to the extent of being able to eat whatever she wants without having to worry about her figure. She lifted her shorts slightly to show me her thighs. I don’t see any weight gain and didn’t pay much attention, just validated.

She went on to say that she thinks she finally recovered from her hospital stay and it’s going to force her to start working out again. 4 years ago, my W had a life threatening infection while she was breastfeeding our D. She spent 9 days in the hospital and they pumped her full of every antibiotic you can think of trying to combat it. I really think these drugs affected her hormones and chemical balance for a long time, but now she says she’s recovered, so I guess that’s good. Maybe that means my W of 4 years ago will come back.

I finished up the weekend by cooking dinner for the kids, then reading some books to them before bedtime. I love my kids so much, things just feel more right when they are home.