I actually physically feel sick. First day I keep chats to minimal. She already picks up on the change and snaps that I don't want to be with her. I book in three GALs this week though! I come home and she's cold as ice. Because probably I never asked about her day. I'm going out tonight and for whatever reason she's decided not to make dinner. Something about can't make spaghetti bol because I didn't make the sauce on the weekend. I said of course not, you wanted to cook on the w/e so I never made it. I ask her if she is asking me to cook now. She says no. Fine.
So she's picking a fight. I'm killing time with my son before kids complain of being hungry. I can't help think this is a ploy to guilt me to cook so I miss my GAL. She's just reading a book. But I know kids will watch YouTube until well after I'm gone. She never asked me to cook, her problem.
Wow, first day, didn't think it'd be this hard. Don't mean to be sexist, bur I know she's on her period so emotions are running high. I'm putting on a cheery front. But ef me. Wait when I decline family time. It's going to be just aweful that convo.
But you know, i feel relief. Relief that I'm doing the right thing for me. And it will end one way or another.
