H came by yesterday, he wanted to talk. He is not happy. He said he thought he would be happy when he changed his life but obviously it didn’t work and he misses me, he misses having a family. He said he doesn’t know how to fix this, I said that it all starts from him and him wanting to fix this. Everything is still fixable. I didn’t talk much, I mostly listened. He said he needs help in straightening up his head. He apologized for what he has done and told me I didn’t deserve this.
He kissed me for the first time since January. We both agreed that fixing this will be a long a slow process and I told him that as long as he is still living with the OW that there is no hope for our marriage. He said she’s gone until the end of August.
As you can read I don’t have many words right now. This is what I’ve wanted all along, but it is also little surprising that it happened this quickly. I’m so afraid of getting hurt again, so so afraid. We talked that for now let’s just start seeing each other and talk, nothing more. This was my husband that was talking, it wasn’t the empty shell he’s been these past 6 months. Any advice? Comments?
On BD Me 39 H44 D14 D12 S10 M19 T19 BD 3/19 Separation 3/19 H filed for D 4/19
