House sale is moving much faster than anticipated, with 8 solid offers in 1 weekend of showing. I wasn't expecting this.
For me it means I may be forced to move out sooner than I had hoped and asked for. This has my anxiety level up. I'm trying to remain level headed, but I struggle with change.
I have my apartment secured for October 3rd so that's a big relief and I feel pretty decent about that. I sign the lease tomorrow. I fully intend on breaking the lease in spring assuming I find my own house to purchase at that time. I just figured I should get through the fall/winter to really be sure of what I want in a house. I'm back and forth between wanting a small home in this city that I live in currently (and love) or a home a bit out in the country that I could get goats for. I'm very interested in both options, and think a bit more time wouldn't hurt me.
I may need to identify temporary housing for September which has me very disappointed. I understand, but I'm disappointed. But, time will tell. I don't know the details yet.
W has been communicative throughout this process. I appreciate that.
1 year ago we were a couple and about to go on our yearly summer vacation. It was the last time we were intimate. 1 year ago things were wrong between us, but not quite fully broken in two. At least not outwardly. 1 year ago is when W started to share just how wrong things were for her and just how unhappy she was. First acknowledgement of it since BD. But still it was just tiny glimpses. We both knew it was there, but she only just started to verbalize it.
I think I need to move forward with my tattoo. I think now is the time for me. Bring some beauty into my life at a time when I know it is all around me, and I see it, but I also experience a lot of pain alongside the beauty. I'm going to get a 4''x6'' upper thigh tattoo of mixed flowers. All my favorites that bring me joy: poppies, roses, hydrangeas, clover, lavender.
