Guilt definitely played a part in me getting a great settlement with my STBXH. I say take full advantage of it when and if he files. Try and be proactive if you can and keep your emotions out of it as much as possible.
Sounds like you are still doing really well. Time and acceptance are the two greatest healers IMO. One you have to work at and the other will just take care of itself. (((HUGS)))
