It’s been a couple of months since my last update.
Me:
I’ve continued to work on me. I’m in such a better place emotionally and mentally. Thank God. My main focus right now is becoming totally financially independent of my spouse. I rarely call him a husband anymore. I want to be able to have the life I dreamed of even without him. So I’ve been working my part-time jobs and grinding my business in my free time. I believe the tide is turning. God has put a sense of peace in me that things for me will be ok.
I wake up each day ready to conquer the day. I try to keep my mind positive as well. I’ve found myself smiling more than I have in over a year. God is good!
I still have to work on my weight loss and working out. It’s been a struggle finding the time to workout. My sweet tooth is still a little out of hand as well. Lol!
My Spouse:
Has accepted a position on an opposite coast (yep a whole different state). I’m not standing in his way. He wanted to get away so bad that he’s taking a job for less pay then he makes right now. He’s whined to me that he’s probably going to have to get a part-time job on top of his full-time one just to maintain.
He will be leaving in a couple of months.
He says he doesn’t want a divorce right now. That he wants to go see if living apart helps him figure out if it was the marriage or something else.
I told him don’t count on me to be here waiting on him with open arms if he comes back. He believes he has a chance. That ego...I digress.
Other than that he’s still playing his little game of pursuit daily. It’s unattractive and I ignore him. He still begs for sex daily. I’m no longer sleeping with him and haven’t in a few months. I have no desire or intention on being intimate with him. I’m more focused on myself and my children.
Anyway, I wanted to give a little update. I’m doing well and thank God that I’ve reached this place mentally. I still have work to do but I’m not where I was when I came on this forum. I’m much stronger now. I high five myself daily!
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
