I need to get my mind off of her for a week or so before I go F$!#ING bat$hit Looney Tunes full breakdown, never get off the floor crazy and do something self caring like a massage or something. Or a week away. I just can't neglect anymore responsibility and have to TCB soon when it comes to house chores and mediation. I can't get off the couch again im so depressed today. Can't even go food shopping or feed myself, plus just got out of 100 deg heat. The bodily ability is there but my spirit is dead for today. My mind has to eventually accept this is happening and move on.Going to order a pizza
