Uhhhh I can't even nap anymore without having dreams of scenarios of W leaving me. Lately she is in the dream on some vacation excursion with S1 and MIL and I have to go and pick him up and no matter what I say to her in the dream, she always has a bunch of reasons ready for me why this isn't going to work, Or tries to start an argument with me. The last one was I walked into her room in a dream loop three times to reconcile. Hug her and kiss her 3 times and 3 times J failed. I think my mind is trying to deal with the denial that comes up that this is never working out in the future. GOD PLEASE WAKE ME UP!!!
