Does your job offer EAP (Employee Assistance Program.) If so, you may be entitled to some free counseling sessions. Alternatively many counselors work on a sliding scale of what you can afford to pay. Some insurance covers counseling too with low co-pays (Mine is only $10 now and previously it was $25).
You may want to visit your primary care physician for some anxiety medication to dull things for a little while. That has helped me and many here on the forum.
Last year I was so anxious and upset that I couldn't focus at work and really struggled. I actually applied for intermittent FMLA to allow time to go to counseling appts so my job was protected.
Keeping busy helps to distract. Have you ever looked up meetup groups for your area? They are not dating oriented but activity oriented and there are all kinds of groups for various interests. You should check into that. It doesn't sound like you have a strong network of friends so maybe that is where you need to focus your efforts first. Maybe pick up an activity you have enjoyed in the past or try something new.
