Everything. About what to do. I still don’t know how to act around her. I still am in searing pain. About what IHALCS just told me to do. About how to let go. How to detach. How to gal when you can’t get your mind off her. About how 1 human could do this to another. About whose advice to follow. How to compartmentalize so I don’t lose my job. How to handle this. How to make the pain lessen even a little
I’m not kidding when I think about her with OM it feels like my chest is squeezing. Like I can’t breathe. Like I’m having a heart attack
How could you set there and look At someone and lead them along knowing your going to crush them
