"Aha! #1" was on when I burst the illusion life with her was so dreamy, and began rating my happiness over the last nine days where we'd interacted--5 out of 10! Logically, it's possible to do better solo.
"Aha! #2" was when she broke a second commitment.
"Aha! #3" was when I spent an evening doing what I enjoyed and rated it higher than 5 out of 10!
What this all means is I can be whole and well on my own. I don't need her in my life. I'm rooting for her. I hope she is part of my life. But I will have a good next year no matter what.
