Sigh. I’m just panicked. I thought maybe I had detached some but it turn out I haven’t. I’m falling apart. I don’t know how to detach. To “not care”. You guys helped me understand yesterday that in her head nothing changed. She’s just being nice. It was only me perception that changed. I have dB a little. That’s why she opened up to me some. But I have done a terrible job other wise. I know what I need to do. I just don’t know “how” to do it
And I can’t get over this potential PA thing. Its consuming me.
I just want it to stop. I don’t get it. I don’t get how a person could do this
Everyone. And I mean everyone in my life at one point has told me I’m not with having. I thought she was different
I feel like like I have been discarded. Like some piece of trash. And tomorrow night. She is goona close the trash can lid
