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[LB55]

The memories are awesome. But very painful. They hurt a lot. Like a lot.

Yep they do hurt. I really start to slide downhill when I think about them, so I don't do it much. Working on living in the moment and not in the future nor the past is how im working through it.

I'm still afraid GAL is gonnna make it worse but I kinda see now. She needs to miss me. Plus it's good FOR me right?

Its ok to be afraid of trying something new. You'll never know unless you try. Like really try; not just a half effort once that doesn't really work because your heart isn't into it and you just concede defeat and go home and tell yourself that it didn't work. It is a GOOD THING FOR YOU!

What if I'm miserable when I'm GAL?

Then you aren't in the right mindset. If you like to shoot guns, why would you be miserable shooting guns? I would propose its because you're busy thinking about her instead of what you are doing. GAL will take your mind off the situation at home, and that is for you because it is healthy for your mind and body.

How many of these end in reconciliation?

Go get 5 dice, roll them and count all the dots. Then throw the dice in the trash. Eat a hotdog. Stand on your head. You nor anyone else can tell you this answer. Some do, some don't.

Also is going to wedding at the casino a bad idea. I could probably go unnoticed. If she is in A I want proof.

What would it do for you? Would it make you feel better or worse to know? How would you feel if she caught you there spying on her and she wasn't with some OM? Might just wreck any progress to this point. Something to think about, because every decision has a consequence.

Why would she deny it if I ask? If I make her so miserable why stay.

More than likely; from what ive read on here the only time they fess up to anything is if you have concrete proof. Dont bluff. You've either got her beat or you are beaten. Live to play another hand.