and if you look at my stats in my signature, I was in the mode you are in for about 6-7 months, thought I was there then would spiral back. Back and forth, losing my mind for months.

Then I did decide that I have two kids, I want to be happy, I'm not doing this anymore. And I tell you I thought I dropped the rope about 10 times along the way....it's not easy.

H-50
W-48
T-19
M -18
S23, S14
BD - 5/9/2018
OM discovered 5/10/2018

In house sep - 8/18/2018
Rope drop 2/15/2019
R'ing since 3/15/2019