Steve always hits the nail on the head and you need to listen to the advice you get here....but it will take getting the same advice 100x until it sinks in....it is NOT easy to get there!

You will never know how this will end up but your #5 should be that the man you were before BD is over. You were a man that attracted this woman and somewhere you stopped being that person. We all did, it is 100% a recurring situation here just with different spins.

Your pre BD self is over.....you need to get yourself back!

H-50
W-48
T-19
M -18
S23, S14
BD - 5/9/2018
OM discovered 5/10/2018

In house sep - 8/18/2018
Rope drop 2/15/2019
R'ing since 3/15/2019