Midlife wife crisis8

[Wolfman]

Having a rough morning. I take 2 steps forward then 2 steps backward. I am just sad that it has almost been a year since the separation and nothing has changed. I thought for sure that when we first separated it was only going to last like a month. Here I am a year later and heading down d lane. I think back to our whole r and think how much I did for her and gave her and it was never enough. She always wanted more and I would give it to her she would want more and I would give it to her again. I guess my struggle this morning is that I gave and ga e and gave to her and the family and to still end up here. There was no pleasing this woman. She looked for perfection in this m and since that doesn’t exist it was doomed from day one. Love is blind and boy was I blind. I think most women would have loved to have me as a husband. Hard working, loving, dedicated, truthful, great dad, and yet all of that didn’t add up for her. Yet she would find the few things I did wrong focus on that and make me out to be this horrible person.

Depression is bad today. Honestly I feel like I have nothing to look forward too. I wish there was good news people on here could give me. But her fog is thick and permanent. I have to laugh one of her friends is going through a bad d. It’s been going on for about 2 years. I heard my w talking on the phone the other day and giving her friend advice on dating. How do you put the pieces of your heart back when it’s broken into a million??

Something I want to share which I thought was so interesting. We had a family therapy session with my d therapist. There was one thing she said to my d that so applied to my w. The therapist said to my d there are 3 kinds of intelligence: 1 academic 2 logical 3 emotional. She said to my d that she is doing things in her life based on emotions not on logic. That if she really thought about certain situations logically she would make better decisions that make her decisions based on emotion. And she said a lot of people make made decisions when they are based solely on emotion because in that moment you may feel mad, sad, depressed. I wanted to say to my w do you see how you are handling our m?? You are making decisions based on emotion instead of logic. Because logically to break up a family over some minor things that happened a while ago it doesn’t make any logical sense. It as we all know they act based on emotion. It just saddens me that my w behavior is based on emotion not logic.

Someone please wake me up from this nightmare.