Yes, that emotional rollercoaster takes a while to accept. The second time is easier.
Compassionate indifference.
You achieved an indifferent perspective and feeling towards H. Then further understanding begets compassion, empathy, forgiving, etc... And a few more rides on the rollercoaster.
You are doing excellent. Feeling these feelings, let them pass, by acknowledging them and accepting them.
Compassionate indifference. You can, and will, love someone; and yet not be dragged around by emotions. It’s a really good path to walk, leads to a wonderful peace, calm, and grace.
H’s email: I think it / he deserves a response.
Acknowledge his feelings, he is reaching out. You are correct he has more than two choices. The fact that he even see these two as choices is good and positive.
The best way to tell him that his indecision hasn’t been controlling you, holding you back, is to show him. Keep moving forward, he is watching. Be a beacon.
He is still on his path. Do not get your expectations up. You can respond, if you choose. How about:
Good Morning H
Thank you for your email.
I am sorry you feel scared, depressed, and lost in limbo. And I can see how you feel you need to come to a decision.
I appreciate you saying how sorry you are.
Thanks
Grace
A kind helping hand from within his darkness while whispers of doubt speak in his ears.
Compassionate indifference.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
