I was doing lots of thinking( as per usual) and I realized I not for one second have thought about letting this relationship go. I still see this to be long term. I have found a guy who I do believe loves me,Ioves my child, and Vice Vera. That is a rarity. A gem to hold on to. And when we do get that alone time, it’s great. And our time with our kids is great.
I was very clear on my needs. I didn’t want him to guess. I told him. And his rebuttal was “ you mention needs, but aren’t those wants?” And we got into a whole debate about psychological vs. physiological needs. We were sending google links to each other, lol. I finally said “didn’t you tell me you “need” alone time? Sounds more like a want to me!” And that’s when he threw in the towel, lol.
He texts me every morning something sweet, drops a text in the day, and one at night when it’s really hectic. He did eventually text me, didn’t ask how I was, just mentioned he was pooped and a few other things. He wished me goodnight, told me he loves me with a bunch of kissy emojis.
I have counted out seeing him this week. And history does show, I make a need known, he tells me why he can’t fulfill it, then slowly does. My D is going to a sleep over tonight, to her dads tomorrow night, then on vacation for a week. This weekend is going to be hot as heck, I want to go to my dads at the beach, but this dog! I’m going to beg to take him. We shall see. Got some good stuff lined up for myself. I’ve decided to take my first kickboxing class in 2 years. Should feel good! Or I’ll vomit. Could go either way.
