Still standing almost 11 years later

[missmyfriend]

Nearing 13 years, I am still in pretty good spirits. Lately I have been depressed probably because I realize my mortality is becoming more obvious. I am relatively healthy, getting in shape both because I want to be in shape in general plus I am going on a cruise in December of 2019. I don't want to be in bad shape when I go and do not want to tire easily.

It is hard for me to believe I am 56. I still feel no different when I was in my early 30s. But with more relatives passing, my mother is ill (and I dont know how long I will have her in my life) and friends that are getting older (them, not me, lol), I am realizing I wont be around forever.

Just in the past couple of days, I have thought about my "wife" more often. I know that if she and I are ever restored, it would be divine intervention. Only He could have anything to do with it. I am not expecting anything. In fact, I am open to a new relationship only if it seems like it is supposed to happen. I am not seeking a relationship.

Ideally, I would have a friend to hang with, go on trips, etc. I am not worried about being in a relationship. I just want to have someone that is my friend.

I just wanted to briefly check in. I dont know if there is anyone still on the forum from back 12 years ago that even knows me but it feels good to stop in after being away for well over a year.

I hope life finds everyone well.