Now she's messaging me trying to remind me of when we were talking about moving to the mountains a couple years ago. I just said "well, that'll never happen". Not in a snarky way, but more in a "I really wanted that, but you ruined my life" sort of way, because realistically I won't be able to move away from this area for another 13 years most likely. So...I dunno. I'm just a bit lost right now (I'm not telling her that though) because there's a huge part of me that does still want her to come back. But there's another part that would never, never let anyone put S and I through that again...including W. It's just not worth the pain. But I guess we'll just see what happens.
