You're not fooling yourself. Things are better but probably not in the way that you think. When you stop the pressure things seem better until you bring up a relationship talk or make a move towards sex. At that point your W will most likely remind you things haven't changed.
If you make a move and are rejected with that send you into a tailspin? If so, don't do it.
The only way out of the friend zone is to communicate to her that you will not be in a sexless marriage with no intimacy and if she is not willing to work to fix the problems in the marriage that you will file for doivorce.
