I need to vent. Today was M’s birthday. We had a nice birthday dinner and the. Went back to his house because I made him his favorite cupcakes. We must have been alone 5 minutes and he says “ let’s go upstairs, I only have one more hour with son” fine, I get it. I say to him “ just promise me we will get 2 hours of alone time this week before you go away” he quickly says “ if I can, my mom’s rental has a leak and I might have to fix it”
We haven’t had alone time in almost 3 weeks. I thought he was going to say “ of course” . Instead he quickly gave me an excuse as to why he couldn’t. Yet again. I was soooooo hurt. I wanted to leave right after the cupcakes ( which I made group scratch) I was just so hurt. I do try, also because he expressed wanted to have his last hour with his son, who was paying attention to us. So we couldn’t quite get out. I left and told him to have a good trip. I can’t say anything to him now, it’s his birthday, but I’m so upset, I’m crying.
Am I wrong? Yes, now he accepts me as a part of his sons life and vice versa. Something I had been wanting. But now it’s loke that we have that, he never wants to be with just me anymore. And not for nothing, I’m barely in the room when his son is around. Which is fine, kids first. But no alone time? Sure, he will kiss me in front of him and tell me he loves me, but I have no clue what is going on. Is he not attracted to me anymore?? I know I’ve gained weight. ( like 7 lbs since we started dating” I wasn’t happy with myself before. But I always make sure I look good for him.
What could this be? I feel so hurt right now. If it was t his birthday, I would be addressing it immediately. Making an excuse for not being able to see me for 2 hours out of the week before he goes away for a week is just wrong. You find the time because you are going to miss your girlfriend and you haven’t had had sex in god knows how long and you want to see her.
