Things have been going well. We had our ten days away, some in a cute bungalow in Hawaii with no air, an outside shower and toilet and as many bugs inside as out, oh, and lizard poop everywhere! But despite that we had a nice vacation. I did learn that I am not very good at relaxing and doing nothing, but learning (if I have a book, I can sit for hours and do nothing).
Life with H is going very well. I'm starting to speak up and ask for what I want or need. If H is angry, I'm letting that go, it isn't all about me! And even if it is me, I can't control his reaction.
Still have some tough times. I'm scrapbooking pictures from last year, right before it all fell apart and dragging up those memories of where we were at this time last year. H just doesn't know what to say when I bring this up, and the conversations seem to go nowhere. And to be honest, I think it is just me driving us both nuts!
A friend at corporate's husband overheard someone talking about us and custody arrangements. This got me in a tither--who would be talking about us and they are 6 months out of date and we never even argued about custody. I made the mistake of bringing it up at bedtime and it didn't go well. However, the next morning H brought it up and we talked.
Working on the trusting this is for real thing, but the gut feeling that something is wrong is completely gone. If I specifically ask for reassurance, he will give it to me. And he is doing small things just to make me smile. It is wonderful. Maybe these last two years have taught us both something. I'm trying to make more of an effort to make him smile.
Now if I could only master the losing weight bit, life would be grand.
